Hey FF,
Mann here. I haven’t talked in a while…. a long while and I thought I would update you on my life. I have done a lot in my first month at Pitt. Worked a new fun job with some amazing people, get involved in my classes, make and work on relationships with new friends, become an infatuation for many young women around campus while slowly falling for a one in particular I nicknamed “Charlie”, and just trying to keep up with my personal writing in the process.
Working at ZipCar has been amazing. I have met tons of new people with great personalities and I have a super hot boss who is excellent eye candy. It is literally the most awesome job. All I do is talk to people about how awesome our product is at a table and get them to sign up. Plus my benefits from the military, I make really good money here which is awesome. I rarely if ever have need for anything.
I have made a lot of new friends, male and female. They all have been nothing but a joy too be around. When I left the military and reentered normal life I lost most of my friends from the service. I’m not mad. It was more so me wanting to part ways with them. I felt I was on a different journey in my life and too leave things of little significance in the past. Most of my friends are much younger than me and I love it mostly because I am not very “mature” and they act my age too a tee something I’m not afraid to admit. I hate the whole stigma of growing up and acting your age. I think I’m going to act the way I act until I’m 66 or older and I’m fine with that.
With the territory of being in college with younger friends comes partying. I party a ton! Too much to be honest. It’s honestly not my style to party this much but I like spending time with my friends so I do what I have to do to be around them. Also, women women, women!!!! Any and all who know me know how much I only have eyes for one woman at a time so once again I am stuck in situation where there are a lot of girls vying for my attention. I can’t complain because most men would be happy here. It does get a tad annoying sometimes. Especially if you have eyes for one…..
Which leads me here. “Charlie” has become the focus of who I care about since I got here. We have gone back and forth for a few weeks with a bit of miscommunication but I feel we have gotten back on track and talked some things out. I think we actually are “talking” per say now which I feel is the best I can get from her at the moment. I’m not going to push anything but have you ever felt a passion for someone that you felt went unmatched? What I mean is I have had this intense infatuation with her since I met her. I would drop any and everything I’m doing to be with or around her which is bad so I try and limit myself. I don’t think she knows that every second I’m not with her I am thinking about her or scheming something special to do for her. The problem is I do believe she likes me it is just we either believe in showing affection in entirely different ways or maybe I am reading the cards entirely wrong here which is strange because I am terribly good at reading people. I don’t know what is going on. Maybe everything is moving as smooth as it is suppose to be. I just know personally I am terrified of walking out of this thing with a broken heart and a few of my friends have been outright in saying that is exactly what will happen. I guess I have to learn the hard way if this is true. One day I will get it right. I really hope I can be the “Mann” she wants but more importantly needs.
Thanks FF,
Mann
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